Hi, my name is Kimsiang and I am socially awkward.
I’m a major introvert, nerd, wallflower, and whatever you call it. I’m the kind of person who wants to just dissolve into a wall when I’m alone in public. I would avoid attending an event if I know there are going to be a lot of people that I know go. I am afraid of change. I care what people think. I am afraid of the stares. I am afraid of the snide remarks. I’m awkward with compliments. I don’t know how to comfort people. I don’t like physical contacts. I can’t look at people in the eyes even while talking to them. I can’t even walk at a normal speed. I always sprint, I always feel like I just want to get out of here. Even talking, I’m always babbling or mumbling, because I just want to get it all out before somebody interrupt or they would all stop listening. I feel like everyone is judging me. I have my earphones with me 24/7. I would look at the floor instead while entering a cafe and such. I want to die when I have to search for my friends in public. I run away from problems, dilemmas. I use sarcasm to hide all my feels. I would trail after my friend when at parties. I don’t participate much in class just because I’m shy. I would have vlog instead but I’ve never felt confident about my appearance. Even blogging, I don’t feel confident to upload a clear full selfie of me.
I don’t have a solution for any of those yet. But I made this post to say that, you’re not alone, if you are shy and weird and awkward. I am proud of me that I am weird and I don’t know why. And I think you should be proud of yourself too, your weirdness is your unique trait, don’t ever change no matter what they say. (This is for myself too :p)
(I don’t even know if I should post this. This is too awkward. Bye.)
Love and loads of love,